To be honest  ,i really do miss what we had last time  . We talked like there's never end to each chapter  . But that didn't mean i hate the new us  . We're still quite the same eventhough there's changes  . I miss being treated like a princess  ,i miss being called sweetheart  ,i miss us being on the phone  ,i miss how he used to send me home  ,i miss how we talk crap in each conversation  ,i miss spending time with him  ,going out  ,walking around and enjoy the atmosphere  ,i miss how we held each other's hand  ,i miss how he kissed me  ,i miss our good morning and goodnight texts  ,i miss how he used to wipe my tears  ,how he used to hugged me  . I just miss everything  . EVERYTHING  . But i can't blame him  ,time changes situations  . You just have to accept it whether you like it or not  . Time can't be rewind neither stop  . It goes forward  .

There's no use if i tell him this  ,cause he's not god to change everything  . He's just a normal person  . Maybe he feels the same way too  ,but we'll never know  .

Sometimes i get jealous when he talked to other girls so happily  . I don't know what issit called in english but in malay we call it 'mesra' . Maybe i'm feeling what he is feeling when i did that to him  . Well  ,what goes around comes around  . Have to accept the fact though  . I can't stop him from doing all those cause that's part of his personality  . He is friendly  . Well-liked by people  . Can't do anything about it  .

Everywhere i go  ,i see sweet couples  . Yes i do envy them  . In smile  ,i cry inside  . When can i have that sweet smile and happy thoughts when we're together  ? I can't really forget what happened in between us   ,but when i'm with him  ,i just have to smile and push away those thoughts  . I had enough crying infront of him  . I can't control my emotions at that time  . But now everything is fine  ,eventhough each of us knew nothing could erase any dreadful incident  . You just have to bear with the pain  . Relationships have their ups and downs  .

It's okayy  ..i still have him here and i'm already happy with what i have :)

Another 8 more days to our monthsary ^^

Dian(A)ndriana